Palindrome

I first discovered Bach's Crab Canon and felt damned, immediately haunted into a void space. It makes me recall a particular night at Watamu Beach in Kenya, where I caught crabs and observed their unique behaviors: they walk sideways or backward to move forward, confusing you about their true direction. It's just like how I want to articulate these thoughts—to free myself from this labyrinth.

I love consuming things that challenge my mind, sometimes getting stuck and obsessed with finding order and developing meaning in everything. But not all things have meaning, nor can they be fitted into rigid constraints. Of all the historical events one has experienced, the urge to assign meaning can add a huge density to your memories, and risking a headache.. For example, I observe myself in the mirror tirelessly. We see ourselves as a reversed version there. Of course, the image is just a product of light reflection, with no other meaning unless self-referred.

However, the "me" in that void space haunts me as much as a palindromic sentence or Bach's Crab Canon—if there were another world doing the same things but moving in the opposite direction. Just like me being stuck in the wonders of Bach's Crab Canon, would that mirrored self of mine function in a symmetric referral loop that aligns conceptually with a palindrome? And just like a crab's movement, where exactly are we heading—to a "future" or a "past"?

Well yes it could be fascinating that the idea of a palindrome isn't merely linguistic but holds functioning potential. Just like this short note of mine serves to show how I often waste time in my own cognitive void, where ideas and thoughts collapse into a piece of rambling yap, and the end of this train of thought becomes seemingly indistinguishable from the beginning. SIGH